Chris Mackney’s suicide note - the one his ex-wife is trying to remove from the Internet.

lejacquelope:

Reblog for great justice.

About Chris Mackney

There’s a lot more about him on A Voice For Men but I do not use them as a cite.

The love that my daughter and I shared was truly special. She is a such a sweet, kind and gentle spirit. I am so sorry that I will not be there to see her grow into a beautiful woman. It absolutely crushed me to not be in her life over the last three years. I worked very hard as a father to build her confidence and self-esteem. She is smart, funny and considerate, but she didn’t know it yet. I pray that she realizes her strengths and her confidence in herself will continue to grow. I love you dearly, [name redacted].

My son [name redacted] was just entering Kindergarten, when I lost access to him. He is gregarious, outgoing and a great athlete. He is smart and fearless. He could have just as much fun by himself as he could with other kids. Even the older boys in our neighbourhood wanted to play with [name redacted]. It absolutely breaks my heart that I will not be able to help him grow into a man. I love you to, [name redacted]. I miss you both so much.

My identity was taken from me, as result of this process. When it began, I was a commercial real estate broker with CB Richard Ellis. I lived by the Golden rule and made a living by bringing parties together and finding the common ground. My reputation as a broker was built on my honesty and integrity. When it ended, I was broke, homeless, unemployed and had no visitation with my own children.

I had no confidence and was paralyzed with fear that I would be going to jail whenever my ex-wife wanted. Nothing I could say or do would stop it. This is what being to death or ‘targeted’ by a psychopath looks like. This is the outcome. I didn’t somehow change into a ‘high-conflict’ person or lose my ability to steer clear of the law. I’ve had never been arrested, depressed, homeless or suicidal before this process. The stress and pressure applied to me was deliberate and nothing I could do or say would get me any relief. Nothing I or my attorneys said to my ex-wife’s attorney or to the Court made any difference. Truth, facts, evidence or even the best interest of my children had no affect on the outcome.

The family court system is broken, but from my experience, it is not the laws, its the lawyers. They feed off of the conflict. They are not hired to reduce conflict or protect the best interest of children, which is why third parties need to be involved. It should be mandatory for children to have a guardian ad litem, with extensive training in abuse and aggression.

It is absolutely shameful that the Fairfax County Court did nothing to intervene or understand the ongoing conflict. Judge Randy Bellows also used the Children as punishment, by withholding access for failing to fax a receipt. The entire conflict centered around the denial of access to the children, it was inconceivable to me that he would use children like this. This is exactly what my ex-wife was doing and now Judge Bellows was doing it for her.

To all my family, friends and the people that supported me through this process, I am so sorry. I know my reactions and behavior throughout this process did not always make sense. None of this made sense to me either. I had no help and the only suggestion I got from my attorneys was to remain silent.

At first, I did what I was told, remained silent and listened to my attorneys. Then after I had given my ex-wife full custody to try and appease her, I learned about Psychopathy and emailed Dr. Samenow about my concerns and asked him for help. Of course, I was ignored. As the conflict continued, I was forced to defend myself. When that didn’t work, I thought I could get the help I needed by speaking out. There is no right or wrong way to defend yourself from abuse. Naively, I thought that abuse was abuse and it would be recognized and something would be done. I thought speaking out would end the abuse or at least get them to back off. It didn’t. When no one did anything they were emboldened.

I took my own life because I had come to the conclusion that there was nothing I could do or say to end the abuse. Every time I got up off my knees, I would get knocked back down. They were not going to let me be the father I wanted to be to my children. People may think I am a coward for giving up on my children, but I didn’t see how I was going to heal from this. I have no money for an attorney, therapy or medication. I have lost four jobs because of this process. I was going to be at their mercy for the rest of my life and they had shown me none.

Being alienated, legally abused, emotionally abused, isolated and financially ruined are all a recipe for suicide. I wish I were stronger to keep going, but the emotional pain and fear of going to court and jail [because of exorbitant child support] became overwhelming. I became paralyzed with fear. I couldn’t flee and I could not fight. I was never going to be allowed to heal or recover. I wish I were better at articulating the psychological and emotional trauma I experienced.

I could fill a book with all the lies and mysterious rulings of the Court. Never have I experienced this kind of pain. I asked for help, but good men did nothing and evil prevailed. All I wanted was a Guardian Ad Litem for my children. Any third party would have been easily been able to confirm or refute all of my allegations, which is why none was ever appointed to protect the children or reduce the conflict.

Abuse is about power and control. Stand up for the abused and speak out. If someone speaks out about abuse, believe them.

Please teach my children empathy and about emotional invalidation and ‘gas-lighting’ or they may end up like me.

God have mercy on my soul.

Chris Mackney

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Choose one of these prompts for our characters--OR--roll up a random prompt using the numbers and have me use that one!
Type Of Porn
1. Regular:
2. Public:
3. Hardcore:
4. Roleplaying:
5. Toys:
6. Misc:
Regular
1. First time: One or Both of you are virgins.
2. Wedding Night: You've been waiting for this night forever. Or maybe not.
3. Masturbation: Put some porn on, get your hand ready, and have a good night with a friend.
4. Blow jobs: Sucky sucky, bucky bucky.
5. Penetrative: There's parking in the rear, or drive through the front.
6. Make up Sex: You did something wrong, and you're going to give this person the best night of their lives.
7. Up against the wall: You couldn't wait when they came in the door.
8. In the shower: Fun in the tub is something worth trying at least once.
9. Get away: You're on a romantic get away. Beach? Some snazzy motel? Whatever you'd like!
10. Been awhile: It's been awhile since you've sene each other, so it's time to make up for lost time!
11. Break up sex: This isn't make up sex, it's goodbye sex!
12. Hook up: You don't really love each other, but you are horny and neither of you is bad looking, so...
13. The big night: You've been dating forever (or maybe not!) and it's time to take the next step!
14. Doggy style: Sex from behind.
15. Frottage: You don't always need to penetrate! Sometimes grinding on each other is more than enough.
16. Spooning: Sex while you spoon... perfect way to start the morning!
17. Couch: Fooling around on the couch!
18. Massage and maybe something more: You want to pamper your lover tonight!
19. Candlelit: Wine, soft music, candlelights... maybe there was even a trail leading to the bedroom! Ultimate cheese.
20. Pick your own: Maybe there's something I forgot, or maybe you want to do multiples. Roll a twenty, and go for it.
Public
1. At school: Under the bleachers, in the classroom, in the bathroom... maybe even on the principal's desk.
2. Amusement Park: You ran out of things to do? There's privacy on the ferris wheel.
3. In the park: Always a fun time, just stay away from the washrooms.
4. At the mall: Changing rooms = Happy Sexy Time
5. The sex store: How people are not caught having sex in here sometimes, is beyond me
6. Someone else's home: You so dirty. Hope they don't catch... or maybe you do.
7. Forest: camping isn't the only fun thing to do....
8. In a closet: seven minutes in heaven? Just no other choice? have fun in there!
9. In the weather: Rain, snow, whatever, you just can't wait to do it!
10. Hospital: In the bed, in the restroom, maybe you just need a release from anxious waiting for news on that loved one!
11. In the car: The backseat and foggy windows, over the hood... maybe the engine's still going for that extra thrill!
12. In the woods: Camping or on a hike, you though that tree looked mighty friendly.
13. In the restroom: You couldn't wait to get out of the restaurant or wherever you are, so a stall will just have to do.
14. Under the table: Teasing your lover (or being teased in return!) under the table at a restaurant. Hands, mouth, whatever you can think of.
15. Elevator: Getting off while you're going up, you just can't wait and you don't care who might catch you.
16. Back of the club: You can't wait until you get out of this club to get your hands on each other...
17. At a concert: You don't want to miss the show, but you also don't want to pass up the chance to get a little more intimate either.
18. Against a window: Up against a window where anyone looking could see...
19. Putting on a show: Sex in front of people. Maybe you were really drunk at the bar or someone paid for it... maybe you just want to do it for the thrill.
20. Pick your own: Maybe there's something I forgot, or maybe you want to do multiples. Roll a twenty, and go for it.
Hardcore
1. Non-Con: They say no, you'll make them say yes.
2. Dub-Con: They may have said yes, but it's going to happen anyways.
3. Bondage: Super tight, hanging from things, unable to move, really hot.
4. Fisting: One, two, three, four, five... and then one again.
5. Blood Play: Red is a really lucky color... not for someone.
6. Power Play: Someone is in charge, and will make sure that the other person isn't. People in power are crazy.
7. Piercing/tattoos: body piercing can an erotic experience for some.
8. Asphixiation: They say it makes you come even harder, but be careful!
9. Gore: different from blood play, this time it's causing more permanent damage...
10. cock & ball/pussy torture: Clothes pins, hitting, and anything else you can imagine that can make you hurt oh-so-good.
11. Flogging: Spanking, whipping, flogging, and whatever else you can think of. Someone's been naughty.
12. Orgasm denial: They might want to so bad, beg and plead, but you're not going to let the come yet. Or maybe not at all.
13. Forced orgasms: Either made to come multiple times or roughly brought to orgasm despite any discomfort.
14. Double penetration: Either in two separate holes or the same one. It could be two toys, a penis and a toy, two penises... or the combinations are endless! Either way, you're going to be stuffed full.
15. Ice play: Ice cubes on the skin or even inside to cool you down.
16. Wax play: Wax from candles poured over the skin. Doesn't it burn so good?
17. Fighting: It's like Fight Club... only it ends in dirty, dirty sex.
18. Electrosex: Electrical stimulation to nerves for sexual stimulation, in particular the genitals and nipples.
19. Sensory deprivation: it can make orgasms even stronger!
20. Pick your own: Maybe there's something I forgot, or maybe you want to do multiples. Roll a twenty, and go for it.
Roleplay
1. Teacher and Student: Someone needs a better grade.
2. Doctor and Patient: Time to give someone the best bedside treatment they can.
3. Cop and Criminal: Those handcuffs are finally coming in handy.
4. Master and Servant: Those servants have to serve someone. A housewife and butler, rich man and maid... those outfits are hot.
5. Strangers: Oh, you've never met this hot, delicious, naked stranger. Maybe it's time to get acquainted.
6. Enemies: Oh I hate you! Oh but I'll have sex with you anyways!
7. Aliens: Oh, you want to probe what?
8. Non-con: Oh, no, please don't!
9. Soldier: the big, bad soldier wants a minute alone with you...
10. Cowboys: Or cowgirls. Yee-haw!
11. Fireman: or woman. Oh, you're going to be putting out a fire, alright.
12. Pizzaboy: They don't have the money to pay, but you accept other forms of payment, thankfully.
13. Good guy and bad guy: Maybe they're trying to take over the world and the only way to stop the is through hot sex.
14. Vampire and victim: You're going to drink their blood... only probably not.
15. Prostitute: They paid for you.
16. Incest: parent or sibling kink? Go ahead and play it out.
17. Priest: They need to confess to you...
18. Kidnapper: Uh-oh, they got you now! What ever will they do to you?
19. Shy virgin: You're a shy virgin but don't worry, they'll teach you the ropes!
20. Pick your own: Maybe there's something I forgot, or maybe you want to do multiples. Roll a twenty, and go for it.
Toys
1. Dildo: Simple, easy to use, and goes in any proper hole.
2. Vibrator: Tiny and portable, it goes everywhere... and works everywhere.
3. Fleshlight: It's like a hole... but not exactly.
4. Strap-on: Girl or guy. Maybe you're wanting one, or wanting a longer one.
5. Cock Ring: Basically, a trolling way to make sure someone can't finish what they started.
6. Anal Beads/Ben Wa Balls: Maybe a dildo isn't good enough. These toys are balls of fun.
7. Real dolls: they're done to look just like a person... it's like a threesome without the hassle of finding another partner!
8. Paddles: for spanking, you naughty little devil you.
9. Wii have an idea: game controllers vibrate... and they can be used for so much more!
10. Fucking machines: Machines with one purpose only, to fuck you senseless. They usually have a dildo attached and speed controls.
11. unusual objects: Cucumbers, candles, or even electric toothbrushes!
12. Clamps: Nipples, labia, clit, penis, there's no limit to what can be clamped in a sexy way!
13. Playing with danger: The handle of a knife, a gun, it's time to walk on the wild side!
14. Dolls: They make some awfully realistic dolls...
15. Sex swing: A suspended seat made specifically for sex.
16. Water: A detachable shower head, jets in a tub, there are a lot of way to be stimulated!
17. Pumps: Pumps can go over the nipples, clit, or on the penis and create a very stimulating amount of suction.
18. Anal plugs: They vibrate, stimulate, or just keep you ready for fun later.
19. Speculum: Want a look inside?
20. Pick your own: Maybe there's something I forgot, or maybe you want to do multiples. Roll a twenty, and go for it.
Misc.
1. Dirty talk: Most people like a little dirty talk... either you've determined to get your lover off with dirty talk alone or you're just getting them in the mood
2. Threesome: Two is fun, three is better. It's fine to play the third person as an NPC if you don't have a third partner.
3. Can we please...: Can we please have a threesome/try this position/do this? Your lover is trying to convince you to spice things up!
4. Phone sex: You want to get your lover off, but you're not right there with them.
5. Dirty pictures/video: You're making a video or taking some sexy pictures for a private collection.
6. Looking at/Watching porn: Enjoying porn together can bring you closer!
7. Dreams: this is all a dream! Will both of you remember it when you wake up?
8. Think I can: for whatever reason, you haven't felt comfortable being intimate with your partner... until now.
9. Ghost: who says spirits can't get a little naughty? Maybe you're not even a spirit but invisible for some reason or another.
10. Sex drug: You've been given a sex drug and you need to get laid right now.
11. Cheating: You're cheating on your lovers with each other.
12. Voyeurism: You want to watch your lover have sex with someone else or for someone to watch the both of you together.
13. Possessed: Your lover isn't... exactly themselves. Too rough? Too gentle? Maybe they weren't even your lover before this...
14. Genderswitched: One or both of you is the other gender!
15. Glory hole: Stimulation awaits on the other side!
16. Sex club: You're in a club specifically for sex. Relax, have fun, try not to interrupt any orgies!
17. Teasing: Sending dirty texts, whispering things in your lover's ear, or just bending over a little too much, you're determined to drive your lover crazy with teasing.
18. Blackmailed: You were blackmailed into doing this...
19. Webcam/IM: You're cybering!
20. Pick your own: Maybe there's something I forgot, or maybe you want to do multiples. Roll a twenty, and go for it.
fight-0ff-yourdem0ns:

ionlyliftontuesdays:

shell-tear-your-world-apart:

endsofadream:

SOMEONE DO A DATE LIKE THIS WITH ME. I’LL EVEN LET YOU TOUCH THE BOOTY.

Now that’s how you get laid boys.

Holy shit that’s awesome.

I want to

fight-0ff-yourdem0ns:

ionlyliftontuesdays:

shell-tear-your-world-apart:

endsofadream:

SOMEONE DO A DATE LIKE THIS WITH ME. I’LL EVEN LET YOU TOUCH THE BOOTY.

Now that’s how you get laid boys.

Holy shit that’s awesome.

I want to

the-unpopular-opinions:

Tumblr’s gender community is literally the dumbest fucking community I’ve ever stumbled upon. 
They want to be recognized and taken seriously, they want to further their rights and gain the equality they deserve. This is completely reasonable, oppression is not fucking fun. I’ve been fucked with for a long ass time due to being gay, I know what fucking oppression is. The LGBTQ+ communtiy has come this far by peaceful protest and showing that we’re just as human as everyone else. 
Then these stupid little piss whipes come in and toss shit everywhere. Their strategy is literally this: 
"We want to gain equal rights and show the world that we’re people too! So we’re going to be as rude, aggressive, and immature as possible in order to obtain this! If people get offended by us saying "Cis-scum", then we’ll tell them that means they’re a privileged piss baby!" 
Are you fucking dense? Do you honestly think this will work? The world won’t take you seriously, the world won’t accept you, the world will think you’re batshit insane and try to push you down even more. You are working against the years of progress the trans movement has worked for. You are ebbing away at what so many people fought for out of your sheer stubbornness and stupidity. 
Fuck you. 

the-unpopular-opinions:

Tumblr’s gender community is literally the dumbest fucking community I’ve ever stumbled upon. 

They want to be recognized and taken seriously, they want to further their rights and gain the equality they deserve. This is completely reasonable, oppression is not fucking fun. I’ve been fucked with for a long ass time due to being gay, I know what fucking oppression is. The LGBTQ+ communtiy has come this far by peaceful protest and showing that we’re just as human as everyone else. 

Then these stupid little piss whipes come in and toss shit everywhere. Their strategy is literally this: 

"We want to gain equal rights and show the world that we’re people too! So we’re going to be as rude, aggressive, and immature as possible in order to obtain this! If people get offended by us saying "Cis-scum", then we’ll tell them that means they’re a privileged piss baby!" 

Are you fucking dense? Do you honestly think this will work? The world won’t take you seriously, the world won’t accept you, the world will think you’re batshit insane and try to push you down even more. You are working against the years of progress the trans movement has worked for. You are ebbing away at what so many people fought for out of your sheer stubbornness and stupidity. 

Fuck you. 


Poor Viper Godmother
Having to deal with all this bullshit

val-hella:

val-hella:

TMI Tuesday! Blow up my inbox

send me:
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what you would do’s
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quillusquillus:

silverspleen:

rockett-man:

jovian12:

IT’S ON MY DASH I MUST REBLOG IT

Holy crap this is the coolest.

Oh man I love this video.

This video is the fucking best and every time I watch it I see something new, so if you have never seen it fix that immediately

so apparently a post made against bronies and a sexual predator at BABSCON was made

mugen10:

and its gotten nothing but negative backlashing/ claims of being outright made up. But of course tumblr doesnt fact check and makes assumptions when whoopdie doo look at this

http://www.horse-news.net/2014/04/advice-for-babscon-delete-facebook-hit_22.html?utm_source=dlvr.it&utm_medium=twitter

a fucking link that acknowledges the story AND confirms that it was true

nice job guys. A plus

Uhm yea the twitter account post was done the 22nd meaning yesterday so Likely after reading the boogus tumblr story.

Not to mention the email neither confirms or denies shit. The booh owner SAYS RIGHT THERE his account is not his own but one he got from a staff. As well that the girl who cooked the story up was only a volunteer so likely a friend of the staffer who accounts the same tale wanting to try and get their friend out of trouble. Especially considering now it’s known not reporting is against california Law.  As he’s quick to point out she’s not affiliated not wanting his event to be any part of the drama.
He even states he doesn’t have the full story and that he needs more before he can account for it.
As such tables near this particular booth have already accounted not seeing anything. And really even if you’re tired and so on a scared child isn’t something easily missed. So there’s nothing but someone else’s account which could easily be a friend trying to fix another’s dumb mistake.
Not to mention Final Draft’s removal was everywhere at once. Including a drunken Purple Tinker complaining about him in a video with drunk /mlp/ 4chan folk. And videos poking fun at his departure. Yet somehow no one even remotely remembers seeing a scared child at a booth or rumors of a creeper something that spreads faster than fire at cons. 

Now I’m not saying there couldn’t be a creeper cause hell my main con has one of the worse. Whose been in fact banned from a lot of the events and cons around here now that people have spoken out against him.

But all this story did was draw attention to some idiot on tumblr wanting notes and not considering the heavy weight of their actions. And that’s what upsets me. That now likely cons will have to go through this huge questioning phase because well so many false stories are brought up.

septemberism94:

schim:

Cats who can’t figure out walls [x]

PLEASE TAKE YOUR CAT TO THE VET IF YOU SEE THEM DOING THIS BEHAVIOR OVER TIME.

It’s called “head pressing” and it occurs in dogs and cats. 

Head pressing is characterized by the compulsive act of pressing the head against a wall or other object for no apparent reason. This generally indicates damage to the nervous system, which may result from a number of varying causes, including prosencephalon disease (in which the forebrain and thalamusparts of the brain are damaged), or toxic poisoning.

http://www.petmd.com/cat/conditions/neurological/c_ct_headpressing

http://www.vet.cornell.edu/FHC/health_resources/toxoplasmosis.cfm (head pressing is listed as a symptom)

http://sevneurology.com/patients/clip-multilobular-osteochondroma (About a dog’s brain tumor but head pressing is listed as a symptom)

I wasn’t going to reblog this until I read the important caption dang thank you!!!

Send me one of these angsty memes to see my muse’s reaction!

lucyrps:

  • "You told me you were going to stop."
  • "And what are you going to do if I don’t stop?"
  • "This relationship doesn’t need a chaperone." 
  • "It’s hard to chaperone a relationship when there isn’t one to begin with."
  • "So is this how you solve all your problems? You walk away? Genius. I wish everyone thought like you.”
  • "There’s someone else…and I’m not sure if it was ever going to be you in the end."
  • "Don’t. Just…don’t. I’m done. Goodbye.”
  • "Saying goodbye to you is proving to be the easiest thing I’ve ever done."
  • "Everyone thinks we’re perfect, but…but look at us! We’re far from it."
  • "I can’t stand the sight of you anymore."
  • "It was never going to be me, was it?"
  • "Face it! You’re too engrossed in your past to see what’s standing right in front of you right now.
  • "What do you expect me to say to that?!"
  • "This isn’t over." 
  • "Oh, trust me when I say that this was over before it even started."
  • "Well, you made your bed, so you might as well sleep in it."

rooooong:

rooooong:

lunarprincessyue:

fuckbronies4ife:

I’m fucking tired and I’m not apologizing about telling that bitch off.

Edit: OH and of course you need a fucking tag about pinkie pony BECAUSE YOU FUCKING TALK ABOUT HER ALL THE FUCKING TIME! LIKE I SAID, YOU’RE NO BETTER THEN ANY…

Actually I’m in a relationship, honey

betafantrolls:

im a shitty rp partner tho

sometimes i reply 19 seconds after youve replied

sometimes i reply 147 years later

rooooong:

lunarprincessyue:

fuckbronies4ife:

I’m fucking tired and I’m not apologizing about telling that bitch off. 

Edit: OH and of course you need a fucking tag about pinkie pony BECAUSE YOU FUCKING TALK ABOUT HER ALL THE FUCKING TIME! LIKE I SAID, YOU’RE NO BETTER THEN ANY ANTI BECAUSE YOU GO AFTER ONE PERSON BUT ALL OF YOUR PROBLEMS HAVE TO DO WITH HER PERSONAL LIFE AND NOT BECAUSE OF THE WRONGS SHE HAS DONE! YOU CAN FUCKING DISAGREE WITH HER BUT GOING AFTER HER BECAUSE YOU DON’T LIKE HOW SHE DRAWS OR MAKING FUN OF HER BECAUSE OF HER DREAM JOB IS NOT OKAY AND THAT’S BULLYING!

Translation:
I am screaming pay attention to me. Though I claimed I end it I clearly can not. Why are you not paying attention to me. I am screaming. I am screaming no please pay attention to me. I am screaming
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here we have yet another tenaflyviper apologist failing to defend their leader

Crikey! We’ve run across the common Toolateicus. This creature is fairly common breed in this area. Coming far too late and with bad mating calls it misses it’s mark again! What a beaut! It’s fascinating how the creature survives 

-writes on arm shyly- ~beloved~

howling-blood:

lunarprincessyue:

howling-blood:

Connor gazed at the writing from the princess on his arm.  ”As you are mine,” he replied, wrapping both his arms around her.

She smiles up at him quietly. “…Is it alright?”

"Of course it is, princess," he answered, before nuzzling into her neck softly, before pressing a gentle kiss to it.

She goes completely red from the affection. “I do rather wish you’d say my name, even if it’s only between the two of us..” Yue smiles again. “Connor.”